Monday, June 9, 2014

Today, I'm hurt and angry

I am sitting here at this moment near tears, feeling as if the whole world is crazy and mean and thoughtless and hurtful and just plain jerks and how I don't want to be a part of it anymore.  I want to head off to some deserted island and hide away so no one can hurt me and my family anymore.

Then I remembered that I was working on a devotion on Friendship and it's importance.  HA!  A bit ironic and funny how things, feelings can change in an instant.

Sometimes, I just don't understand things at all.  Have you ever met someone who trouble just seems to always follow?  I just don't understand it?  They do nothing to deserve it, yet it is always there lurking in the background.  It makes me always wonder during these times where God is in this.

Scriptures come to mind, "For I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord. Plans to prosper you and not to harm you..."  And yet here we are in 'harms' way again.

I know, I need to put my full trust in Him but in these situations, it's so hard.  To be honest, I'm kind of mad at Him.  I'm mad at the world.

Then I think about Frank Schaefer and how his world got turned upside down and how he is still going, loving, preaching/talking about Jesus' love even though he hasn't always been shown that love by the church and his son hasn't either and yet he keeps going.  I need to let him be an example to me.  Life is hard, people are mean and unloving even Christians and the Church and yet we are still called to love and be in the world.

Scripture I need to remember today, that I need to be written on my heart:

John 15:18“If the world hates you, know that it has hated me before it hated you."
Matthew 5:44 "But I say to you, Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you,"
Matthew 5:10 “Blessed are those who are persecuted for righteousness' sake, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven."

1 Peter 3:16 says, "Having a good conscience, so that, when you are slandered, those who revile your good behavior in Christ may be put to shame." 

I can do this.  I can trust that he's got this.  I can continue to live as best I can following his son's example and not let the world get me down.  I can do this with his help.


  1. You're in a real place when you can share what is happening on the inside. You are also in a great place because you can take the word of God and make it your shelter, your hiding place and your refuge. It is in these dark times that we need to run to the Lord and cry if we must, complain, let it all out, but don't stay there. Get up, dust yourself off, shake the dust of what's bothering you off, and boldly get up, declaring God's blessings over your life and move forward. The victory is yours today. God is with you and on your side. Continue to hold on to His Word.

    1. Thank you. I feel a little better today. I know God has this and it will all work out I just get so very frustrated. Thank you for your kind words.